Oh, dear, I might have to take a shot at this. I'm not a great fiction writer, but I might be able to make a passable Mythos story, maybe draw from my years as a "Keeper" in Call of Cthulhu.
Listened to the first episode. I dig your reading. You did a great job sounding terrified, despairing and also like you were really remorseful and disgusted with yourself. Really good characterization....Or do you always sound like that?